Tuesday, April 24, 2007

What would you do?

As my children get older, being a mom is still really hard but in a different way. I don't have to wake up for middle of the night feedings, I have no dirty diapers to change, all of my children can feed themselves. My trials come when I have to make really tough decisions and if I follow my gut, then my kids think I am the meanest, most horrible mom on planet earth.

Here's my dilemma today. Madeline gets to go to girls camp this year which she is thrilled about and I am excited for her as well. However, Jocelyn is feeling very left out and now wants to go to 4-H camp with her friends. I am not feeling very good about it. For a few reasons.
  1. It is co-ed.
  2. It is co-ed.
  3. There will be a dance.
  4. It is co-ed.

Many of her friends are going, several of them are LDS, one is her cousin. I have prayed, talked to other parents whose children are going, and I still don't feel great about it. Saying that she really wants to go is an understatement. She is even willing to pay the $150 to go and she has the money.

The problem is I just can't figure out if this lack of desire to see her go is spiritual promptings or just my overly protective motherly instincts. Brandon is leaning towards giving her a chance and letting her go just this year with her cousin and friends. I am leaning the other way.

I need more input, advice, perspective.....What would you do?